The desire for something more...

For the last few years I have watched more people around me transition from one place in their life to another. Friends starting families, falling in and out of love, experiencing death or desperate pain... As young human beings we live day to day not fully knowing what will blind side us. A Glance from across the room, a small half smile and a tickle in the pit of your stomach could lead to a lifetime of happiness OR a Dr. Apt. could bring news that means the end of a life. All things are possible, learning to cope and how to deal with these changes is what makes a person resilient and successful.

We are all in search of something. From love, to affirmation, to understanding...we are in a constant journey seeking to fill voids or to satisfy feelings. This is called Human Nature. There is nothing wrong with seeking more. It is WHERE we are seeking it, and WHAT we are putting weight in that counts.

Grow. Learn. EAT!!!

We live in a world that is so connected We are who we are because of our parents and family. We do what we do to either please others or to make a statement, to stand up and be proud of ourselves. We react to the challenges in life based off what we know.

I look at people around me and the different way to deal with pain, joy, frustration, confusion, love.... life. We are all from different cloth. Why is it so hard for us to see that and appreciate it. I feel like often people get upset and judge so quickly, not willing to look at the whole person. What made that girl so insecure in her past, what happened to her that created such a hard shell that contributed to what a BITCH she is today!? There is so much more to life then what we feel in a moment. But it only takes a moment to judge and react and possibly create a life long regret.

How many people have you seen that regret a moment. An impulse.
How many people have you Hurt? Judged? made an instant decision about and for the rest of your life that is the foundation of your relationship?

Just food for thought....

Being In lust...love...whatever it is

For those who don't know I work for a group home. Recently we have been deeling with boys and girls who are "Desperatly In Love!!"

The acts of love through time have been extreme. Passionate. Expressed in forms of brilliant writing, such a E.E. Cummings, Jane Austin, or the conflicting pains of Shakespeare. Or the feats displayed publicly, out of desperation, in order for the WORLD to see the depth of their affection.

But…in this generation…what does that passionate expression look like?? Certainly not carvings/writings in one’s arm

Is it the extreme denial of structure, rules, or even reality…Then making some dangerous statement as evidence of the depth of that passion?

When I look at the kids I work with I feel bad for them, yes of course because of the lives that they have had afflicted on them, but more so because I struggle to believe that they will be capable of experiencing the simple parts of love. The joy and peace that can come from pure, natural love.

Embrace the "new"

(These are all people in my life who have been inspired by change, embraced change beautifully, and/or have created change in my life)

“Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward.” -C.S. Lewis

This last year I have learned lessons I never thought I would. I feared the unknown. I lived in a world where I was scared of change so much that I would react befor ethere was anything to react to! However... it is inevitable. Change is gonig to happen. Things in my life have come and gone that has molded who I am. We all have times in our lives that we look back on and say "how did I survive that?" But in the end, when a new beginning comes around, don't you feel proud and stronger?? The "new" should not be feared but craved. Knowledge and understanding brings a better overall love for life.



Love lost


Abundance of stress

Overwhelming emotions


Direction


Relationships



I am still left with questions, but when I first learned to desire change in my life, I became more at peace with my universe and with myself in it.

Where do we find time? Where do we find peace?
When do we just accept that change has occurred and move forward?

A Simple thought on LoVe

Love is around us in so many forms, we can not begin to comprehend the greatness of it's effect on our every day lives. I have felt all sorts of love, but the one that I find most constant and most inspiring here on earth, is the love of a parent for their child. Living in a world where there is so much suffering and pain, in the arms of a father there is comfort and with the touch of a mother there is peace. So simple a touch, a hug or a word can bring a world of pain to ease.

A certain understanding of Human nature…

Talking with a friend recently I came to realize mid conversation that people in our world are greatly lacking perspective, knowledge and an open mind. We get caught up in our lives we don’t allow in the new. We don’t allow God to mold us, we don’t allow people in far enough to let ourselves be vulnerable and grow, and we struggle to see situations through other people’s eyes which causes us to be extremely judgmental.

For my whole life I have been fascinated with people. There are SO many kinds!!! Funny, serious, dirty, way too clean, careful, stressed out, carefree, angry, loving, kind, relaxed, content, worried, passionate etc… I used to catch myself just staring at people when I was in the grocery store with my mom. This is why I am confident that I was created to work with people whether it be helping them, listening to them, laughing with them or even just being with them. In my years of living I have met people from thousands of different backgrounds, I have learned from wise men lessons about adventure and perspective, I have listened to the stories of women who have experienced pain unimaginable. Life has touched every person in majestic and beautiful ways, to look into another person’s universe, even for just a second, is so powerful and beautiful.

Currently reading Ephesians 1

When reading in most parts of the bible we find repetition. With the repetition in stories; God triumphing or Christ being persecuted, there is also great repetition in words. “Grace”, “forgiveness”, “peace”, blessed, blameless, freely given etc…. These words are NOT words of judgment, NOT words of discrimination and NOT words of any negative nature. Rather they are words of love, open arms and open minds!

This is true, not a debate, just truth in what you read. BUT if this IS true, then why do we live in SUCH JUDGMENT, daily walking and debating or telling others what is and is not what God “means” or what God “wants” for our lives? Are we are exactly the same? We are made in his image, but we are all our own person with our own decisions. WHY do we live in a world/society where we presume to judge a man for his decisions when God is ONLY about grace, forgiveness and understanding.